Where did the Goal go?

So, I had a goal three months ago to have my WIP finished and into the editing stage. And here I am three months later, not finished.

It isn't that I haven't been working on it, because I have...

Every time I put my laptop on my lap and open up my novel, I just reread my last few paragraphs and sit there. Just. Sit there. And it is really frustrating that the words just aren't there. I see the scene in my head; I see it so clearly. But the words.

 Just. Aren't. There.

So I wonder why I cannot meet my goal and if there is something wrong with me for not have met it. Until today. I came unto the conclusion that it was perfectly fine not to meet your goal in the rough draft stage because that is what it is...a rough draft. You are still figuring stuff out, moving pieces around, and changing your mind. The words will be blocked from time to time, and it's no big deal.

Some authors take YEARS to write a book, and you can better believe that it is awesome. Because of all the time and love they poured into it.

That is something I want. An awesome book, and if it takes me a little longer than expected or planned the pfffttt at least I'm putting my heart into it.